I've never written a blog before, it sounds silly when I say it out loud. I can't help but wonder if it will be good enough? If I will be good enough? What if I get it wrong, how will I even know, I don't know the rules of this newness? Will people laugh at me? Will they think I am stupid?
Maybe I won't write it..... the little voice in my head is telling me that nobody will be interested in what I have to say any way. Maybe I should just put my laptop down.
This is a pattern for me. The first time I do any thing it all seems a bit new and scary. I don't know what's expected of me, I feel vulnerable and unsafe, so I put off doing whatever the new thing is. It was a month before I used my new coffee machine, I was afraid of getting it wrong or breaking it!
Procrastination won't take away the newness though, it simply allows time for the new thing to get bigger and bigger in my head and feel more and more daunting.
As I sit here, facing the daunting newness, I remind myself that people write blogs every day, it's just my thoughts, looking back at me, on virtual paper.
For me, when I have plucked up the courage and taken the step into the first time of any thing new, I most often find that it is no longer so scary, it is no longer so new. These first small steps seem to take some of the power out of the newness and claim it back for myself. I feel as though I am able to build on the small step I have just taken.....
So, this is my small step, welcome to my blog and I hope to see you here again soon
Colette
